So I drown my sorrows and regrets.. every sip brings me a little closer to forgetfulness.. I don't understand why I act the way I do.. why I always yarn for something new.. why something so perfect feels so empty.. why do I chose to destroy the thing I want so bad. Why is it that the thing I once craved begins to fade away.. why my attentions change. I don't understand why I'm in love with a dream and the reality never lives up.. so I destroy and forget.. then regret.. I forget the good.. I forget the bad.. but something new has no past, no present.. no good, no bad.. I know what I miss now "passion" something so basic but so necessary.. I yarn for the excitement, the challenge, the unpredictability.. change.. have I changed, why!!!! Why think this way... why behave this way.. why hurt the one person that truly cares..