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Originally Posted by midnightpoet
;) smooch....
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Originally Posted by midnightpoet
;) smooch....
Juls, I hope that alone meant solitude rather than loneliness.
If you were closer you could have joined the wife, I, and the dog. Hope you're taking care.Quote:
Originally Posted by Firemajic
You all are the best, you know that?? You are the best goddamned humans who ever lived. I want to hug you, kiss you, and tell you how much you are awesome!
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Originally Posted by astroannie
annie, it was both, really... I needed solitude... Trying to stay off drugs is a long lonely journey.... and I have medicated my emotions for years, numbing my pain... now, I am learning to feel my pain and deal with it... face to face... searching for peace starts with understanding the pain, and the origin of the pain... Thank you so much for your kind words...
Dear Midnight, turkey dressing is one of my favorite things... Thanks for the *hug*
Lee... what a wonderful thought, to have dinner with you and your family... I can imagine we would have a lot to talk about.... fabulous... love you bunches...
Juls, I know you have the strength and ability to do whatever you set your mind to. This might be a lonely journey but we've all got your back.
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Originally Posted by amsawtell
I m counting on that, amsaw.... For years I have numbed my pain... now I realize it is ok to cry...
There can be serenity in being alone, but you have to be ready for it. It sounds like you're in a strong enough place. Hang in here.
I'm doing my second sleep study Saturday, the one where they introduce me to the CPAP machine. We'll see how that goes, but everyone of my acquaintance who has one, raves about how awesome a life-changer it is.
I'll try to take a selfie of me with all the wires and stuff. We'll see.
I wish I could relate my experiences but I haven't lived those. I have had bad experiences of my own and whatever physical pain or emotional pain people face is something harsh. I have seen people suffer through wanting to feel as if they don't want to live anymore, all I can advise is to talk with people you know, can trust, and even join a group. You may even make new friends. I used to go to support network called nami, which is why I am saying this in the USA. People go through some of the same problems. I don't like to say we have the same problem. But discussing it relieves pain.I have even seen near relapse patients,but I know it takes bravery. Then I have seen them because I went to a ward. And it was against my own doing.It was a military facility, they would make military facilities available to diplomats. My parents were. But it does good to talk about your problems, so that you don't feel alone even if you must choose. Some I can't share, because no one lives through those experiences and must be shared with people with similar experiences and people you trust. Sharing is key,because human intuition can only go so far, in my opinion. There are free support networks like nami for people who may need them. When I would always go they would tell me this bit. Research a bit and see how that works, because professionals recommend it. From alcoholic anonymous as an example to more, that are charities. Or funded by the state government. A canadian therapist would host the talks each time I was over there and was a nice person. Whatever the problems nami was an umbrella organization for people who suffered.
Good stuff Julia. Some time last century, quite early in my recovery, a dear friend said to me something I've never forgotten. The simplicity astonished me. It was: "Drugs kill. Feelings don't."Quote:
Originally Posted by Firemajic
The journey need not be lonely though. Been there, done that. I'm only a message away.