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Change of Plans

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Do you ever get that feeling? You know, that you might be in the wrong place? I'm talking about where you live. It just doesn't seem like where you're at- you're not getting anywhere, zero to little progress in life. Maybe you feel stalled or like you're treading water. The wheels are spinning but you're not moving forward.

That's about how I feel this passed week. At least, since that phone call telling me that the class I signed up for was pulled from the schedule. The class I really wanted was full, in all slots. To make things mushy, I took a more in depth look at the catalog for the school I plan to transfer to (another community college) and saved for 2 or 3 classes- they have what I'm looking for. Kirkwood even has a much larger selection of courses in creative writing. WITCC has one.

This leads me to feeling like I'm at the wrong school! Save for those few classes.

I have 18 transferable credits to date. I need 64 / 65 to earn my Associates of Arts - English degree.

With things as they are it seems to make sense that I move across state for Kirkwood. I'm going to shoot for the courses I need that WIT has / Kirkwood doesn't, Then, save my money for the move East to the Cedar Rapids area.

This is assuming the classes are / will be on schedule with openings.

HUM 101 Intro to Humanities
SOC 250 Sociology of Deviance

And I need to repeat

LIT 101 Introduction to Lit

Creative writing- science fiction is not taught at either school

Hopefully this will be the last time I need to adjust / change my plans.

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  1. escorial's Avatar
    the need to feel you belong is a powerful thing..it's alot like love to me one of the mysteries of life that i can't explain but you just know when it's right for you..and feeling you belong has a very big impact on us all i think..hope you find that inner desire....
  2. MzSnowleopard's Avatar
    This isn't the same thing. I have the sense of belonging with my church. And I will miss the church family.

    This is something entirely different. After 10+ years of being here, I know that this town doesn't have what I need. I've been at little to no progress in my life and dreams. And most of the people who think I should give up my dreams (save for 2) live in this town.

    Other than this- I am treading water, spinning my wheels in mud with zero to little traction. I need to get out of this town and to a place where I can move forward.

    As I said it's not about belonging, it's about making progress in life. Moving forward is preferable to spinning wheels which is all I'm doing in this town.
  3. TJ1985's Avatar
    I too am spinning my wheels, but I have no alternatives. If you do have an alternative, make sure it's workable, make sure it's not a mistake, make sure you can live with it, and then leave that place in your dust! You've got to keep you happy and only you can say precisely what will do that. Once you figure it out, make it happen. There are no mistakes when you're trying to intelligently improve your circumstances. The only mistake is to stay where you know you'll remain unhappy and held back.
  4. Gyarachu's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by MzSnowleopard
    This isn't the same thing. I have the sense of belonging with my church. And I will miss the church family.

    This is something entirely different. After 10+ years of being here, I know that this town doesn't have what I need. I've been at little to no progress in my life and dreams. And most of the people who think I should give up my dreams (save for 2) live in this town.

    Other than this- I am treading water, spinning my wheels in mud with zero to little traction. I need to get out of this town and to a place where I can move forward.

    As I said it's not about belonging, it's about making progress in life. Moving forward is preferable to spinning wheels which is all I'm doing in this town.
    Oh boy can I relate to this. I graduated from college last year. Years earlier, before I left home, I had that intense sense of belonging in my church. A group of kids, all roughly the same age, all best friends growing up together. It wasn't that hard when I left, mostly because a few of them had already gone, but I was also excited for what lay ahead.

    When I got to college I found a level of belonging I never thought possible, and I don't think I could ever describe it. It redefined for me just about every word pertaining to friendship I can think of. That was hard to leave. Really hard. And there are days now when I still struggle with it.

    Coming back home, I haven't been able to find any sense of belonging in my old church. It's just too weird, and it all feels like a giant step backward. Stuck in a town I feel offers nothing for me, with virtually no opportunity to do the sorts of things I want to do, I feel you about the spinning in place. I need to leave, and fortunately I do have plans in motion, but the past year has been a series of speedbumps and roadblocks. I'll get out eventually, I just wish it was sooner rather than later.

    It seems you, too, have plans in motion. I would say 100% go for it. There's nothing that says you can't go back if things don't work out, but you can't go back somewhere you've never been in the first place.
  5. MzSnowleopard's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by Gyarachu
    Stuck in a town I feel offers nothing for me, with virtually no opportunity to do the sorts of things I want to do, I feel you about the spinning in place. I need to leave, and fortunately I do have plans in motion, but the past year has been a series of speedbumps and roadblocks. I'll get out eventually, I just wish it was sooner rather than later.
    EXACTLY my point and position.

    I think this also might be a contributing factor with my problems in writing. The spinning wheels turns into frustration and who can write when they're frustrated?
  6. Gyarachu's Avatar
    Quote Originally Posted by MzSnowleopard
    EXACTLY my point and position.

    I think this also might be a contributing factor with my problems in writing. The spinning wheels turns into frustration and who can write when they're frustrated?
    Embrace the tortured artist within. Dishevel your hair, and bind all your clothing into wads with rubber bands when you wash them to ensure maximum wrinklage. Mumble to yourself constantly, especially in public. Above all else, ensure that whenever someone speaks to you, you halt them in mid sentence with an expression that says you've only just realized they were there and you find it the most absurd thing in the world that they would be uttering such a string of syllables in your direction.

    Or uh... You could stick with your plan. Change schools and get the heck out of there to somewhere you feel you can thrive. Either could work.
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