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  1. The pressure.

    This will be a long one but it's important to me so if you like you'd do well to go get yourself a cup of coffee or tea and come on back to read for a while. (BTW, somehow I ended up with a whole lot of spaces missing. Annoying to go correct all of them. Sorry to anyone who saw those before I went back and fixed them, and I'm sorry if I missed any. My proofreading is only marginally more thorough than my regular reading.)


    Boys and girls, pressure is a wonderful thing. Capable ...

    Updated June 1st, 2016 at 08:12 AM by TJ1985 (wonky formatting.)

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  2. Errors and renewed efforts. (Language)

    As some may recall, I recently blogged about something I was trying to do and in the comments I mentioned I subsequently failed miserably. As I understand it, I had the wrong end of the stick on multiple levels and have rectified my mistakes. I hope.

    As I understand it, I only need ONE image out of ten to be accepted. That in itself is a great comfort, it means I can have more missed shots and still hit somethin'. Truly, when I submitted the first set of ten, I felt three weren't strong ...
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  3. Another Leap of Failure? (langauge)

    As always, this will be a long post. I tend to save up for 'em and you can't give a blabbermouth a live mic without somebody running long.

    I intentionally mince no words on the fact that I fail a LOT. Okay? I'm not that guy everybody knows who can start any task and have it go according to plan. From business ventures to relationships to hobbies, either I directly screw it up, the life situation I'm stuck in screws it up, or circumstances that intervene screw it up. It would not be ...
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  4. Life Decoded. (Language)

    In the smaller hours of the morning I often find that I get downright philosophical, so bear with me. If I don't get this out it'll be stuck with me all day and I don't need the extra load on a day like this. I'll run long, primarily because I don't even want to think about the day ahead. Join me on a journey to the center of my consciousness... Or Tulsa, it all depends really on the traffic and the radio reception...

    Life is billed as a complicated thing. The more I see, feel, hear, ...
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  5. A creative wall.

    For the first time in my life I've experienced something that could be called "writer's block". Oddly it's not the typical "cannot write at all" variety, it's very selective. Very selective. I can still white prose works. (BTW, for the followin' items, you'll get them as they fall from my fingertips save for typo correction, no edits or rewrites.)

    As the water lapped onto the rocks, he couldn't help but marvel at the wonder of the place. Three months ago he'd fished ...
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  6. Life, or something that resembles it. (Language, as always)

    Long time no see and I'm sorry for that. Since I was last regularly active here, life has taken a few interesting turns. My mother's medical situation has become more... interesting. If by "interesting" one means bizarrely busy, irritatingly tiresome, and hectic, then it's been very interesting.

    Today, she had a surgery to install a piece of kit called an "arteriovenous graft" AKA an AV graft. It, once healed and "matured", will give the dialysis folks ...
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  7. The longer road. (Language)

    Which, I am sure you've learned to expect from me, will result in a longer post. Sorry about that but that's how I am. I will warn you, there's some dialogue included which I've had with myself.. I'm weird that way.

    Life is not going well. I'm now serving as full-time caregiver for a very sick parent, driver and part-time caregiver for an uncle whom I've always felt was as close to a male parent as I'd ever have, and I am slowly realizing a few things about myself that I wasn't ...
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  8. The human tongue.

    The human tongue is a wondrous thing,
    offering sweet comfort or misery.
    Not knowing the difference between

    how stupid I have always been
    and how stupid I would have to be.
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  9. Kicked out of the "club" (too long to read)

    I was just starting to fit in too and now it's like I'm the guy who told the poot joke at a business luncheon. Oh well, life goes on and there are other clubs.

    Need a rewind for this little movie? It'd be a pleasure. I joined a forum for artists. After all, I intend to be one and it'd be nice to have "connections". The problem? They're very well-oriented in "fine art" and I'm... well, I know less than ten paintings by name, on a good day I can remember who painted ...
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  10. The Wall... (Language... lots of it.)

    I'm about to kick a creative hornet's nest. Watch and learn, maybe you too can learn to stick your foot in your mouth as skillfully as I. Take heed, for it can take decades to master it and even I stumble from time to time. I mean this not to offend any specific person here but totally understand that it might do that. I'm not "targeting" anyone here, know that up front.

    I've hit the fuckin' wall. Yeah, I put a language tag on this post but I reckon most people wouldn't expect ...
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  11. RAAAAAAHHHH! (Language)

    Okay, so as roaring screams go, it lacked finesse. I'm working on it.

    I'm trying to make this drawing thing work for me. Really, I am. I log my seat time, I'm making some small progress, I learn something new every day, I'm having a miserable time, I tend to fill my spare time with scribbling some shape or another, I really try, I study the craft. I want this, okay? I want to create the kind of stuff that makes the whole world go "Wow. That's, wow. I'm... I can't find the right ...
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  12. Failures.

    I'm slowly coming to realize that sometimes, failure is not only an option, but a likelihood. I'm also coming to terms with the fact that I am a screwup. Everything I've done this year has ended up going bad, making this a year of failures. Right now, I'm working on a new project. It's going to fail. (I caution, I'm very leery to mention it by name. I'm downtrodden but not totally defeated. Yet.) I know it's going to fail because I can see the writing on the wall: I'm simply not good enough at what ...
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  13. Confessions...

    Well, this may not be easy, lol. I'll try to be brief. Over the past few weeks I've had some difficulties in my life. The most prominent of the "signs" being that my mood, attitude, and verbal filter have been out of whack. I've been having some serious pain over the past week and a half, and the meds prescribed have made me a little less likely to bite my tongue, a little more likely to pop off at the mouth, and to be more than a little... hostile/belligerent. To make a boring story shorter, ...
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  14. Complications of Creativity.

    (This is more a mental dump, the first in quite a while. If it makes no sense, it's my problem rather than yours, lol.)

    I've discovered that being ceaselessly creative has many pitfalls. It feels a little too... "cat lady" to merely churn out item after item after item and keep it to myself. The other side of that? Finding viable outlets is a tricky problem. I have that little mental issue that says I should share, to be social and let others see my stuff, but it's not easy. ...
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  15. Crimson Flows.

    Crimson flows from my soul
    the ragged hole open still
    This thing stepped between us
    parting us against our will

    A better man wouldn't hurt
    a worthy one would endure
    I value myself worthless
    for I know of but one cure

    I cannot kiss your skin
    knowing I'll find his taste
    I cannot enjoy your hands
    knowing they've touched his face

    As I walk along this path
    back to the land I know
    the misty ...
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  16. Rough day. (Probably too long to read)

    Back when I was too young to realize how dumb I was, I threw away college money to attend a trade school. Back then, college was where rich kids went, and I believed that the world was built by people who built things. I was partially correct, but I didn't know my health was going to tank. My ignorance left in the past for now, today has been rough.

    I trained in welding with 22 other idiots... "students". Among them we had guys who had the touch. One of our informal tests ...
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  17. The Realization.

    I've realized something.

    When I get up in the morning, I get out of bed. The first sound I hear besides the radio that plays while I sleep is my left knee. It crackles. When I was a kid I screwed it up riding a bicycle and it crackles until it loosens up. 99% of my injuries were untreated, because if I'd been taken to the doctor every time I got a ding or booboo, I'd have been in the doctor's office a lot. Kids bounce back, so it's cool.

    I take a step and both ankles ...
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  18. Writing in a Rut. (Language)

    As I mentioned in another post, I've started a novel. Things are not going so well in that novel, and that's an understatement. Somehow, I've forgotten how to write. Hell, I'm not so sure I ever knew how the way it's been the last few days.

    The concept is good. Any writer worth calling a writer could work with it and make it an excellent story. There's a rock solid plan, there's a likeable character in a tough spot, and there's a lot of good story there to chew on. I just can't write ...
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  19. The long road lies before me.

    Four long boring years ago, I did what I dreamed I would do. I wrote the crappiest and most unreadable piece of puke on paper, and I called it my masterpiece. I wrote a novel. I didn't know that westerns didn't sell, and I didn't give a damn because I'd written a novel. I self-published and lost money on it because I assumed that "write it and they will read" applied. It doesn't, it didn't, and now I know better.

    Yesterday, I was sitting here watching some mind-numbing pablum ...
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  20. A tough post. (Language/offensive content.)

    This post has been written and rewritten 122 times. Seriously folks, do you have any idea how many files it takes to compile 9.35 Megabytes just in documents? That's a lot of material. So, what have I decided? The subject matter being what it is, I've opted for the cowardly route.

    The writing had run to, at one point, 4 pages. all about me trying to psychologically cope with the post. Not doing that. A couple people here have privately bolstered me, and I'm ready to come forward. ...
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  21. What works for me.

    I've learned a few things in twenty years, and I have to remind myself of them when times are hard. What might work for somebody else may not work for me, and what works for me might work only for me. That said, I think it's good to share on the basis of giving people options. When the boat is leaking, holding your finger over the hole sounds silly, but it might get you back to shore.

    Recently, I've found writer's block to be problematic. One piece of advice on that front is to simply ...
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  22. Why I write.

    I'm not sure of the protocols with a new guy just making himself at home with all the gadgetry of the forum, but I am a born jabberist and if you show me a place to jabberize, predictable things occur. If I've run afoul of the rules, feel free to delete this and smack me. I request gently, but I'm not a picky person.

    A psychologist would have a field day with me. I don't exaggerate when I say that, if every thought I had in any given day were typed in a document, we'd be talking about ...
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