A poetic book and diary that spans about five years. I used journaling as a tool to collect my thoughts and think more rationally. In 2005 I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia anymore, but this is my journey through the questions about treatment and the effect of medications. I also have included some dreams and stories. I hope it inspires people.
Writing the memoir was a journey in and of itself. I learned a lot from writing out my thoughts every day and collecting them, editing them for accuracy and noticing moments in my past when I was not as clear thinking. It started in 2010 when I was put on Seroquel. I lost a lot of my writing and memory due to an episode. My first signs of deterioration were noticeable in high school where I went from a straight A student in math to failing. The depression and the effects of the mania really took a toll on my education. So in learning to write out my feelings, I could educate myself and communicate better overall. It helped because I no longer hold a label of schizophrenia. I still have adhd and bipolar disorder, but it's not as severe as was once thought it seems.
On the trip to visit my relatives for thanksgiving, my dad and I talked about jobs and career paths. I want to start out as a behavioral technician, and someday maybe manage organizations that outreach and educate people on techniques of coping with mental health and substance abuse problems. I also have experience with friends and personal experience with substance abuse that I overcame. The important factor in recovery is willpower and hope to succeed.
My novel is about 48 chapters if anyone would like to support it. Thanks for this wonderful site!