In the short time that has passed since my arrival I continue to enjoy every minute. I check several times a day for anything new. Absolutely love everyone here.
Read a few other blogs, interviews and whatnot. And what would you know, people having the same things I do!
Like TJ over there, I also have constant streams of never ending thoughts running amok in my head much faster than I can consciously process. rcallaci even speaks to his own characters! I'm not the only one! Hoorah.
To every person here I examine I only find another quirk I myself possess! It's wonderful to be cursed with boundless, endless creativity and no skill whatsoever to refine it. How I wish I had paid attention in my English and grammar classes!
I'd be attempting to write now if I wasn't almost sleepwalking.
I literally have at least six new ideas every hour or so but forget them or never elaborate.
The struggle then is to recall, write down and format said stories I've invented. Everything works together perfectly until that point. I can invent epics here upstairs but as soon as I outsource the job to my fingers to hit a keyboard, something stops the gears.
Fear.I know I have good ideas. But it seems as soon as I attempt to refine them and smelt them all together...They just sound stupid. Something in my mind tells me 'Other people won't like this as much as you do. Look at how you're writing, it's all wrong, no one would ever enjoy reading that!'
And I cringe and jam the backspace until the page is clear. I don't usually show it but I take everything personally. It's a terrible habit. Even bland, blanket statements cut deep. 'What if someone absolutely hates it?' I can hear them now. 'You should give up.' I know no one would actually say that. But that doesn't stop the mind from wandering though.
Fear is hardly rational. But you guys seem smart.
Just feels better to put it in writing! Onward. Everyone has been incredibly nice. Thank all of you. Have a good...whatever it is.