I worked seven hours straight today, illegally skipping over a 30 minute break, with one thing in mind. Writing Forums. Now, I don't even feel comfortable. Perhaps, I was too comfortable. After seeing how much I've done, I gave myself credit where my mouth was and blew off a lifetime offer last night. I even thought it was special. To mark my blog's anniversary. Just one thing for me. It wasn't enough. No, I am not enough. I am sorry I wasted your time. I am sorry I put everyone else before myself. I can't change that. I am here to make a difference. The only problem was suggesting the stage crew to brighten the lights. The fact that the lights were on me should have been enough. I am worthless. I am uncomfortable. I'd ask for a hug, but now that's too awkward. Tally: two members I hurt. Too many too soon. I will continue to contribute my services because it was never about me. I will always be the board over the stream for new members to take their first leap of faith.
In continuing to revive different areas of Writing Forum, I have been going beyond visitor messages. If your birthday has passed within the last 30 days, you have received a birthday greeting with a cupcake. I hope to see this idea becomes implemented as it's nice to have a day to ourselves. You can pass over mine. I blew the candle too soon and wished too much from a candle that sat on a cupcake.
Anyway, rant over.
I will punish myself later tonight. Perhaps, I'll watch infomercials.
I can't sleep without saying this. I want to clarify that I did not intend to sound entitled, and I respect the proposal as well as the final decision. I am genuinely sorry. Good night.