I want thru the 3 year which I know but I don’t understand my cousin very well. But it’s a good thing that I made a schedule for myself but I don’t know how well it’s going to work. But right now I’m feeling tired even though I woke up at 8 this morning. I know that I haven’t written anything since last year. I don’t know if I’m depressed or stressed. Sandy and gran got me a new cell phone because I keep running out of minutes. Right now CJ is asking to watch TV but she can’t because she didn’t finish her lunch. But she has two choices: either finish her lunch or go take a nap. Which of course isn’t her wants (or in her thinking needs) so she’s running around with a book. She’s so stubborn. She reminds me of someone. She just stuffed her mouth her lunch because she really wants to watch TV. She hasn’t been home from school for an hour. So far on the pad that her teachers are so opposed to write in about their progress of the day said that she did pretty good at school.
Today, Sandy wasn’t feeling good because she had to get some of her teeth yanked at the dentists. And she puked up this morning while she was taking care of CJ after she had a night mare 2ce this morning because of the cops flashing lights at the top of the roof. But then I had to get up before 8 this morning because CJ was up at 5 and didn’t want to go to sleep and she’s the kind of person who thinks that since she’s up everyone should be up with her. That actually annoys me about her. What really is sick is that I understand the kids in shows than my own 3 year old cousin. That is really sick.
When I was talking to my friend, Ben, who I talk to every day, there were parts of our conversation that he acting like a jerk and I told him that I didn’t know the answer and that I didn’t like being yelled at like an idiot after I asked him what was bugging him. Other than that it was a fun conversation. We were playfully calling each other names. Then I called myself a total lion bitch which later he said that it was catchy. Our relationship of being friends is at the stage where that no matter what we call each other we could say without offending each other. If my gran read this bit she would understand that. That’s the kind o of friends Ben and I are. Ben and I have been friends since 9th grade at Taft High School but I had to move back to Baltimore where my mom and gran were at. But Ben said something really made me laugh so hard he would’ve thought I was having a fit. He said that maybe he wanted or needed a GF. GF stands for girlfriend. Anyways he said that and I started laughing. It was so funny. But I’m starting to like him again like I did back in 9th grade. I do love Victor but Victor and I haven’t spoken for a few days. If I haven’t heard or seen someone for a while my faith in them would fade. I’m not sure why. I have to go to bed since I’ve been up for 15 hours. I’m really tired.
Sandy and I are still watching “West Wing”. This month has been a marathon of “West Wing”. On January 21 this year I got sick with stomachs and nausea and I vomited 4 to 5 times. Soon Friday I had to eat very little so that the food could stay down. But then on Saturday night I started to have diarrhea. I was miserable for the next of days. I finally stopped sometime last night. I was glad about that.
Victor doesn’t want to eat me out or not wear a condom because he thought that he and his cousin Freddy were the only ones fucking me two years ago starting prom. But I told him that I got back with an ex right after prom and that he and I had sex without condoms. He’s just upset about it. I’ll just give him enough time to blow over it. It’s been over a year since Victor and I fucked. And I’m really horny. Raphael and I have been talking for a couple of days. I’ve known him since last summer at Carowinds. Amusement Parks are crazy. Amusement parks and I don’t mix well. I hate amusement parks. I never did.
I’m still waiting for Job Corps to get back to me but I haven’t. I sent 3 emails the past 2 months but the counselor got back to me on1 email only saying that it’s going to be a couple of months to process my file. So far nothing. While I’m waiting I was talked into going to Chemeketa Community College and getting a job since my last job was Carowinds Amusement Park. I never want to set foot in an amusement park again. Amusement parks are crazy!!!
So far as I’m doing the Job Corps, a Chemeketa Community I’ve been talking to my friend Ben who lived in Oregon all of his life I think. But he’s really cool. I’ve met up with Kukia who had lived in Japan in his early teens until he was 16 years old. I’ve met him on Original Poetry and I fell in love with him 2 weeks after becoming good friends. The n he broke up with me after a week getting together which is a pain the ass since men are pigs. He admitted that he’s a dog.
I’ve thought create a book for CJ on her 4th birthday since she enjoys reading books. But she’s been acting up lately and wanting to be her way. Like watching her shows all the time or having to go outside to play. She’s been acting really, really stubborn. Her grandpa Dan had a heart attack a few years ago has a heart thingy to keep him alive but thing is he might not make it to CJ’s 6th birthday.
A cousin recently had a baby. Grandma Ruth may not be thrilled about that since she’s a Christian. I honestly trust no strictly religious person what so ever. They come up with the stupidest excuse about something to be as in or and that the world was created 6000 years ago and that science is not a true thing.