But I always have words, so I will say a few sentences.
I am sad.
I am tired.
I am anxious.
But I enjoy my coffee.
I enjoy waking up in my bed because I know I am safe.
However, I keep getting bills in the mail for medical things, and I don't understand why I'm getting charged more than what my plan says I should. Thanks, job, for your outstanding contribution to my health and giving me fantastic insurance.
I'm a bit of a mixed bag these days. I really don't like being so unsure of myself. I saw my friend tonight after work. Just to catch up briefly. She said I looked tired. I am.
Yeah. I dunno. At least the last several days at work haven't been awful. At least I don't feel like I'm walking on egg shells around my manager. A circumstance occurred a few weeks ago and there was so much tension for the longest time. But things are okay. I still get anxious before going to work, but that's just my life at the moment.
The most annoying part of my being, is that I have great moments in my life and they bring me a lot of relief and happiness, I just honestly don't know how to keep those feels enough to combat the bad ones.
I know I need to go see someone, I've decided that much. It just hasn't happened yet.
But I wake up in the morning, and I'm living my life and that's everything.