as such, it’s hard for me to be thankful today. rather than being a day dedicated to recognizing the past and what she’s taught me, it quickly becomes a day of rumination and sadness.
my mother refused to eat today until i called. she was angry i took so long, despite the fact that i’m two hours behind and called 30 minutes after i woke up. she chewed out my father and sibling for not buying her good enough presents. and when i did call, she hardly spoke and then complained i don’t care about her. the only reason i called, she said, was because my father had reminded me.
and as much as there is a kernel of truth to that, i still find myself incredulous and hurt. she takes a day meant to be about love, family, and recognition of growth and turns it into a guilt trip. she can’t accept that i’ve moved on with my life, that i am controlling my direction, and instead takes out her anger on me and my loved ones.
i know i shouldn’t be affected by this, nor should i be surprised. but it still hurts.
i hope all of you have a wonderful mother’s day and can share your love, light, and wisdom with those around you.