i find myself resenting my parents for a handful of things, but I've heard so many horrible stories of truly bad parents and it makes my " problems " look normal. Everyone wishes their parents were more awesome somehow. There's only a small percentage of kids/people who love their parents as they are even with their flaws and "issues"...... Or am I wrong? Are there more good parents out there then I realize? Most of the people I've met in my life are crazy, white trash, incompetent, a dead beat bum and even child abusers. No that's not an exaggeration.
At the very least most of the " child abusers " are old, dead or dying. All of which are on my moms side of the family. With them as role models it's no wonder so many of my aunts and uncles are losers. I wish I could say it's not their fault. I wanna give them some kind of credit. Truth is I don't know my moms side of the family well enough to credit them for anything good.
I don't know my dads family at all either which is super annoying beyond words. And no it's not because of anything normal. It's not because we just don't see each other. It's not because we or they are too busy. It has nothing to do with anything other than my dad had to be adopted by one of my aunts. A woman I called nanny. As well as an uncle who was an asshole that I never met. I suppose I can just call him asshole. He's the reason why my father turned out to be such a shitty parent. What I can't wrap my mind around is what does him being adopted have to do with anything? He's still their biological brother/cousin. Did my dad do something wrong? Is there something about him I don't know? He's been cut from the family to the point that they even took away his inheritance his biological father left him.
i wanted to write about life experiences and instead I'm talking about my parents problems. I have no right to discuss or write about any of this, yet it has a lot to do with why my life has turned to shit.....