I don't know if any of you freewrite, but I've recently taken up the habit and thank it for helping preserve my sanity and grant me more insight into myself. The writing might not be pretty--it is unedited, and the very nature of freewriting means you type EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING that pops into your head (stream of consciousness, per say)--but it sure is a nice way to find some release.
For those of you who do freewrite, I thought this could be a place where we post our daily ruminations. Mods, please move this thread if it is in the wrong place.
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Freewriting
December 24, 2011
There is a story within everyone. It holds their experiences and emotions and the things that happened to them that they are too scared to tell anyone else. It is a place that they do not like to visit often, yet that they visit every night. A place of dark things, mostly, but some bright things too. And to go down to that place consciously, to meet head on the enemies lurking there that want only to cause harm—that is something. To face these things, not only to face them but to defeat them, that is something grand. Something necessary.
But facing these things is not easy. Most people are too frightened to face them. They hide behind religion and sex and video games. They watch television. They drink beer. They smoke a cigarette. They do anything to delay the inevitable.
Because they do these things, when the meeting does come the things in the dark have grown so much that defeating them is out of the question. The things in the dark have warped into depression, and they grow within the soul’s darkness; undisturbed, they fester. The night’s watchman knows it is there yet refuses to act, and soon the depression is unstoppable. It swallows whole and mercilessly and without asking questions. Nothing can sate its appetite. It eats until it can eat no more, until there is nothing left to be eaten. All light is consumed, all hope shattered. The depression feeds on doubt, fear, insecurity, anxiety, boredom, even. Desire is its enemy, desire and love and anything that entails striving. Anything that entails a vision for a better future.
Defeat, renouncement, hopelessness—those are its allies, those are our enemies. Yet too many of us give into this cynicism and hold that this is all there is to the world when there is so much more if we would only open our eyes and see it or hold out our hand and grasp for it.



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