I wasn't entirely sure if this was the proper place to ask, but to heck with it.
I just turned 19 last December, and as all 19th birthdays go, I had a party.
It had everything. Sex,drugs,rock and roll. You know, the usual teen gathering.
My friends and I indulged in the finest things are pockets could buy. And for a moment we were on top of the world.
But then a realization came crashing down on me.
What have I done with my 19 years of life? Sure I'm still young, but just that fact that I haven't done anything of worth or substance really got me down.
I lived in the same place my whole life, and have never been out of my country 'till now.
Somehow, I just think that there has to be more to life than just getting a diploma and finding a job. Living and dying as another faceless drone in the corporate machine.
I have decided to leave home, just sever my ties with everyone in my life and see the world.
To westerners, this may be commonplace, or at the very least a substantial amount of people have done. But in the Philippines, it's quite unheard of. Not that no one has done it before, it's just heavily frowned upon.
No amount of tradition or pestering from my family can assuage me, I know that seeing the world on my own with nothing more than a pack of clothes is gonna be an enlightening experience. Besides, I believe that it will help with my writing. Seeing the world, doing odd jobs at strange places, I do think that it will help mold me into a better person.
However, I don't know how to do it. I'm hoping that I'm making sense to at least one person in here.
What advice can you give me? How do I even start with this journey? Am I overanalyzing this? Should I just say "F*ck it just go"?
Thanks. Oh and, go ahead and criticize. I don't really give a sh*t
