(Note: this is one of the first things I wrote. So I know it might not be very good, but don't be afraid to tell me what you think needs improving. That's why I'm here.
Edit: Man, just realized this wasn't where I was supposed to post this. Uh, I'll leave it up here anyways, but I'll understand if it gets deleted.)
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Love- warm liking or affection for a person, affectionate devotion.
Corruption consumption is the act of purposely continuing to do something that is negatively affecting either your mental or physical health.
Love is a beautiful thing. It can give people the strength to perform unimaginable feats. It can give you that extra push towards something special. It can turn your body into iron to protect the ones you care about the most. But at the same time, love has the potential of being the deadliest force on Earth. It can easily turn the best of humans into the darkest of creatures. It can make you do things that would leave you wishing the feeling never existed.
Imagine the feeling of loving someone who doesn’t love you back. Every thought you have is of this person. Every dream is of you two holding each other in arms. It’s like paradise in your brains. You never want to leave. Then you snap out of your day-dream or wake up. You realize all of it was a lie, and that your paradise doesn’t exist. You wish with every fiber of your being that it was reality. You let out sorrowful sighs of breath and can feel the tears rushing down your face. This beautiful feeling of love is literally killing you.
It hurts so much. You try everything in your power to avoid the pain. You try staying away from the person at first, in order to remove them from you daily thoughts. It doesn’t help at all. You can only think of them in your solitude, and you long to be with them. So you try the opposite. You make attempts to spend as much time as possible with them. And even though when you two are together it feels so incredible, when you both head separate ways, it leaves your heart heavy and darkened. Then the tears start up once more.
You’d do anything for this person in an attempt to show how much you care. You’re willing to put your own health and heart on the line. Anything for this person. No matter what the cost. No matter what the consequence. Yet the more you do, the more it hurts. You think that you two are getting closer, and perhaps you are, but at the end of the day you two are still “just friends”. The one you love still looks at you the same way, as when the day started.
You continue to pray, try, and cry. Unable to make your biggest wish and dream into a reality. This corruption called love is growing worse and you are now dying. It would be wise to move on, but it’s simply too difficult. You WANT to love this person because deep down you have thoughts of you two together, and they are so sweet and amazing. All the pain, all the suffering, all of everything would be worth it, if you could only achieve it…
You are consuming the corruption. You can stop but you choose not to. Due to the hope inside, and this hope is wickedly strong. But what if all that hope, is false? What if all the work you are putting in, is for nothing? What if you are working towards a goal that is never going to happen? Would you continue the corruption consumption even for the smallest glimmer of hope? Is it worth killing yourself over?
Such feelings could easily cause mass depression. So many thoughts and questions running through your mind at once. You lose track of everything else. Before you notice, your entire world has fallen apart, and there not even God’s hands can fix it. You are forced to live with the decisions you made while in this terrible state of mind. Where all your thoughts were controlled by one feeling… LOVE.
