GREEDY - Writers Forum

Nono · 06-15-2007, 07:19 AM

GREED

There it is, that dirty word when you can think of no other insults that will hurt that person you are aiming at. My father just hung up on me again accusing me of being "greedy". You see we were having a heated discussion about my future versus his own security and he said it with a lot of venom. I promised myself the next time that man hangs up on me, I wasn’t going to talk to him for a long time to come, but I soon forgave him. Besides, he just endured prostate cancer and that admonishes all fights that might have existed. I didn’t see this coming though. Every time I get hurt by his words I try imagine treating my only child the same way and I am almost disgusted at the thought of hanging up on or calling my precious daughter names.

It’s a long and twisted tale that began over a hundred years ago with my great grandfather who raised his only daughter and his adopted son, my grandfather. We called my great aunt, "Kitty". I think her name was really Katherine. I loved her as a child because she was what I thought a sweet old lady should be, but there was tension over land that divided Kitty and her stepbrother that has carried on for two generations now. Without even thinking I have carried my mothers torch for her beliefs because I am proud of the meager but strong upbringing I had. I never understood this ugly behavior that I am now being accused of. How can you act one way for my whole life and then demand different of me now? Kitty’s two sons are but persons to me despite intense family hatred that has grown to the point where my parents share the same church with One of Kitty’s children and his family but speak poorly of him behind his back my whole life. The other son killed himself a couple of years ago and like everything else we as a family all learned what happened and then very with great intensity ignored it. Yeah. Thats my family’s method of dealing with every issue that is difficult. Ignore it. Ignore my gay sisters needs, ignore my brothers autistic child, ignore the sexual abuse, ignore my abusive father, but I am greedy!

You might be thinking I am a spoiled child writing about private family matters but please endure my writings. You see, I have no where else to turn. I am about to explode inside my head if I don’t talk about the truth, so I have turned to writing. I have no desire to hurt anyone or use words against others. I simply want to do as I have always done and that’s to talk of the truth. It is refreshing to my soul. I think hate hurts us physically and ages us, slowly eating away at our lives. I had to get away from my family and start a new life almost two decades ago because I was torn between my childhood and what I knew was opposite and right for me.

If we should meet, I want you to look me in the eye and speak the simple and plain truth. Our goals and lives will always be different but I will respect you when and if you speak the truth, not some sail that blows with the wind and in the end look to those that have surrounded you and seek that respect. It’s your life but I choose to spend what time I have treating people with a respect that says, "you can’t walk on my soul and expect my heart". Please live a truthful life because there is no second chance.

blackthorn · 06-15-2007, 08:31 PM

Kinda depressing..... Where are you headed with this story? Write a little bit more so I can see a little farther ahead. Right now?...Meh...... Just waiting to see where it's headed.