spikeraber

My mom called me and asked how I was doing. I told her that I was fine and she wished me a happy birthday. Ha, my birthday, I had totally forgotten. Some things were getting clear and more focused while other things were fading out.

“It’s not everyday you turn 30!” I could feel her smile through the phone line, traveling all the way from the small country house in Kansas to my little studio apartment in the big apple. That made me smile.

I told her that my recent gallery had been a great success and I had sold enough work to put me a little more into the mainstream, I was on the up in up. She told me that Uncle Joe would be getting out of rehab the next day. She asked me if there was anyone special in my life yet and I told her no, all women wanted was my money and didn’t care for me personally one way or the other. She told me that I was in denial. I asked her if she had quit smoking. “Touché” she laughed. We talked a little more said our “I love you’s” and said goodnight. I didn’t tell her about my sickness.

When that dog bit me I didn’t think anything of it. It wasn’t that big of a bite and he barely drew blood. But I guess that’s all it takes.

I’ve been having dizzy spells. The past three days I’ve craved nothing but raw meat. I have been having these terrible nightmares. Last night I dreamt that my hands were claws. Everything these past few days has seemed surreal like I was in a horror movie. It doesn’t always feel bad though. When I eat I feel better. I can see better in the dark. Everything smells so interesting. Even stuff that usually stinks to me. Its really weird.

I hope that I’m not turning into a werewolf or anything like that. I don’t really like the idea of losing control and eating people. Maybe I could be a good werewolf. Like the kind in stories that go around and solve mysteries? Yeah. I could be a werewolf detective, using my supernatural abilities to help people out. Like a bloodhound on crack. I like that idea. I’ve always wanted to do that. Help people out.

I went to the Discovery Store today and bought this really neat lunar calendar magnet that I can put on the fridge. Tomorrow night is a full moon. So if I am a werewolf then I won’t go to the doctor. If I am an evil werewolf I will go to a priest or something and see if I can get cured. If I am a good werewolf then I suppose I will begin searching the world over for others like me or other supernatural things. Maybe I could be a vampire hunter? I don’t know. I’m probably just sick in the head. Is it even possible to be a good werewolf? Maybe I’m just in denial.

TriCloudStar

This feels like a small piece from a much larger piece. If it isn't now, you could make it that way.

This reads like a diary. Make this just one entry in the narrators diary.

You could go so many places with this. He really is turning into a werewolf. You could show the progression of his mind slowly becoming more carnal, barbaric, naturalistic. And then you could throw in the good/evil element you've already played with. Where does he go? What does he do? What becomes of this lonely painter who loves his mom but not his world?

Or maybe he isn't turning into a werewolf. Maybe he's really just depressed and his feelings are eating away at his consciousness. His recent success has scared him. What if one day he really does become a famous painter? All that pressure, all the expectations-- he knows he would just fail, only mess things up. Like he does with the pretty girls.

Anyway, just thought I'd let you know I like this, and feel like it could be more than it is now.

spikeraber

Thanks for the imput Cloud. I am planning on expanding this, hopefully into a mini-trilogy. I'm glad that you liked it and I appreciate the encouragement!

Mobius88

I liked this story a lot, but I didn't like how he asked if he was becoming a werewolf right up front. It makes sense that he would suspect it because of all the "hollywood history" that Everyone has seen nowadays, but try having him be reluctant to go in that direction. He seems pretty accepting and not too upset about his situation. I'd like to see some more added to it. Your character is interesting.