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Writing Machine
Join Date: May 2006
Location: I'm sitting in a tin can, far above the world.
Gender: Male
Posts: 1,707
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RAVE: sexual content
I'm sure theres an amount of grammar problems, if you see them please point them out. I guess I'm happy with the story though and hope you will enjoy it, please atleast skim through.
P.S. Not complete
Intro:
Life as a D.J. My life... My painful life now on paper... D.J. Air (Jason Smith) is finally giving my fans and other readers the dark side of the euphoria in our world. Tears, love, drugs, music, fans, music, drugs, love, tears, money, money, sex, RAVE.
Is the perfection of our life style really perfect. Our only goal a 24/7 long orgasm but, with these orgasm creation actions I assure you comes unwritten causes and reactions. Heaven on earth can not be physically, or manually made. Happyness can only become possible through a mental process which I've now learned here in LRI (London Rehab Istitute). I assure you my story is not all money fame and glam but twisted, dark, and saddening.
Some parts in the story may appear to you to be enjoyable and some are but, the drugs, money, and fame are not strong principles for any one to live off of. The love, the music, the beauty yah sure I should have my self stuck to the three even though it's those three things that leaded me to the last three. A note to the world let love lead you to a logical positive solution don't let it drag you to the depths of anguish and loss.
Lastly I appologize to all of my fans. By law I am to be kept away from the world of rave so I wont be your D.J. anymore and I also appologize if the truth I reveal displeases any of you. I still send the best of wishes to all of you and those who know me personally will probally receive some sort of contact from me when I am released from LRI.
-This book is dedicated to the death of my parents Max and Laura Smith... I'm sorry.
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RAVE. RAVE. RAVE. I was exstatic about it. I finally have the opportunity to go to a rave. After my own experiments with turn tables and favoring such D.J.'s as Tiesto, Rozz, and Scribble I'm finnally going to witness their world! A goal of mine for quite some time, it was just to hard to find a rave in Conneticut. A quite boring place that I certainly wont miss. I suppose raves are a casual thing in europe though. Spending the day trying to be intelligent artistic types and at night storming the clubs until sleep gets on it's knees and begs to be supported.
For the occasion I picked Amanda up, my date for the event and surprisingly she was just as thrilled about the rave as me and I'm sure she's been multiple times in her past. Then again the excitement may be because, she already knows what's coming or maybe it's just the excitment of intoducing some one new to the scene. Either way she's my mentor into this new world I've only seen on videos and heard on my music player.
I pulled up to her appartment and there she was waiting outside! Like I said she was anxious to go. We exchanged hellos but, once she was in the car it was quiet almost all the way there; I guess it was from our own nervousness that kept us mute the whole way and how ever awakward it was for me, she looked as if she could have cared less. It wasn't until we got there she really opened up. She stopped me from opening the door at the club by slamming her palm on the base of the door as I reached for the handle.
"Do you know what you are about to enter?" she said with her hand pressing against the door.
"Yah I suppose I got a pretty well equiped image from literary and video sources" I was in a way confused but didn't care I just wanted to see the scenery behind the large grey doors. I wanted to see the culture, the rave!
"This is a world were your whole perspective on life can be changed from typical to euphoric. Do you want this change?... because, if the fear of heaven on earth scares you, I'll let you in but wont let you see the inter meaning of a ravers life." she was serious and I was speachless, "Just say yes or no!"
"yes" I said hoping I wouldn't regret my answer.
"o.k. then you're about to be introduced to my world" she pushed the door open and there was complete darkness but once I stepped in I realized it was full of people. I felt like a rat in a box, it was very odd but senses told me things were going to flip for the good side by the look of the crowd.
I quickly got adjusted with the crowd, every one was anticipating and waiting tacitly for the night to begin at Club Euphoria, there was a strong almost unbearable tension in the room. All you could do was repeat "oh shet, oh shet, it's going to happen, it's going to start" in your mind. Seconds went by and you could feel chills flow through your spine. Random people were yelling with "woooots" and "yaaaahs". All of a sudden you could hear a voice chanting quietly from the speakers, "love your self, love the music, love the music, love yourself". The lights began to fly through the cold room as a mellow beat began to play and you could just feel your spine bursting through your back, screaming for the jump. my finger nails were clinched to my palms like magnets almost breaking the skin. People in the club began to scream, I began to scream, we began to scream and at this second the music and lights stopped for a shot of pyros; Strobes kicked in and the beat boomed in a whirlwind of motion. The whole crowd began jumping, yelling, screaming, dancing, claping, stomping, the entire room was in a euphoric bliss and every one was shouting "love your self, love the music, love the music, love yourself". The Lights blasted back on and stormed acrooss the room and the floor was beating with a heavy passion. Grey fog multi-colored from the lights caressed the bouncing floor and it was as if we were all floating across it, as if it was a dream and you couldn't help but love it.
On the stands there were girls dancing on poles, they felt the music, I felt the music, the crowd felt the music, Amanda felt the music, we all felt the music together and the second this thought crossed my mind the D.J. screamed, "Do you feel the f*cking music" and we all screamed, "yaaaaaaaah". He then let out another blast of sound that charged through the room like a bomb. We were animals rampaging the floor; music was our food and we were beging for more. I felt as if I'd just seen the future and it was scientifically incredible.
Everything was just kind of flying by and I already didn't want it to end. Five minutes in to a three hour show and the end of it was already depressing me. There was so much going on I had nearly forgotten all about Amanda. I began to scan the crowd but It's not easy to find anything in this mass of movement and flashes I know now as a real genuine rave. Thank god for Amanda and her invite I thought.
I met Amanda at a photographry class I'm taking for college here in Europe. She is an amazing artist I just had to compelement, she was also a person I'd like to use that as an excuse just to know if she was single or not. Well.. she was and didn't hesitate to ask me to come here with her. I of course obviously accepted. I was already so keen of her in general physical and mental structure. I loved her art, her icy blue eyes, and golden blonde hair in which she had purple streaks. She dressed with an individualistic class I've never seen before. Her every aspect aroused me. She invited me to this rave, now here I am but were is she?
"Hey Jason look at what I got" It seems she had left for some... punch?
"Punch? Theres a bar full of alchohol... Yager, Shmirnoff, Grey Goose, Absinth, Crown and you get me punch?" I was shocked and found it funny at the same time.
"Just drink it and shut your mouth" she said jumping happily with the crowd. So I drank it to please her interests and started to jump along with her. I figured after a couple minutes I'd go to the bar and take a shot or two of absynth. Cant get it in America, "By the way if you start feeling diffrent It's the ecstacy I put in your horrible non-alchoholic punch." I was shocked.
"What! Are you f*cking telling me you put X in my punch? Are you f*cking kidding me?" I couldn't believe she did that but sadly in my case it was a turn on for me. Bad girls always turn me on and I can't help but to subject my self to them in these situations. It's one thing I hate about me I'm to damn vulnerable for the predator female.
"Don't worry you'll love it." I just paused thought hard and... began to jump along... My first experience at a rave and I'm already on X. Mom I hope you will forgive me. I knew I shouldn't have gone to college in europe for photography. America is a much safer community for me. Less odd people that's for sure but then again, can't being odd be simply classified as individualism? Oh I don't care I'm raving.
A couple minutes went by and I started to feel the drug hit me and send that good happy feeling I always heard X gives you through my whole body.
Amanda started to move her hands through my hair and nibble on my neck so we started to make out right on the floor. The only thing I could think was, "bliss oh sweet bliss" over and over. So wrong yet so beautifull.
The Ice blue that was once her eyes has disapeared and now reflected the color of the lights red, blue, orange, gold, purple, green all of them illuminated her pupils that grew with time because of the drug. Her arms gripped as our bodies and mouths swimmed with the music, feeling the beat as we felt each other. My hands brushing through her blonde hair. Every motion sent sensations through my soul it seemed. I had never felt such passion, such lust. I was in love with the feeling, the music, the girl. I felt free of cares of any kind.
All the people here were dressed very individually. Most of them wearing rather bright clothing. Then there were the break dancers flipping and turning and swirling. I'd like to learn some of it. The thing that interested me the most though were the ravers with glow sticks. I could have watched the lights dancing through the air all day but of course I was on X.
"follow me" she said softly, dragging me across the floor. Everything was blinking as if the surroundings were turning off and on because of the strobes. The multi colored lights were swirling more and more coliding with the cold fog floating across the floor. It's far more intense on the drug. I began to laugh. This was just to weird, me running through a club, high on X, with a beautiful women. I've fucked up and didn't even care. Then all of a sudden we stopped.
"Here drink from the fountain" she pointed at a six foot tall crystal fountain shooting out water from sparkling tubes and I was severly tranced by this odd water spraying tower.
"Drink from the fountain? What? hahaha... are you serious?" I found this was quite hysterical at the moment. Being that she just said it like it was a water fountain you drink from.
"Yah look at every one else. It's important to drink water when your on X. Thats why the fountain is here. We call it The Fountain of Life, being that it can actually safe your life." I looked harder and there were people drinking from it sure enough.
"Well fine then... Wait, what do you mean safe my life?" That part just really stuck out as a good thing to ask I don't know why.
"You can get Dhydrated easily on X" she then began to drink from it.
"Well o.k." I bent over and began to drink. The water was actually the most refreshing bit of water I've ever had.
"Gooood job beautiful! Now come on lets go sit down for a little while." she then dragged me to a red leather couch which had poka dots spread all over it. I thought it was the craziest looking thing in the world. Hell I thought who ever invented it beat Thomas Edisons light bulb by a long shot. Then again... there was a drug in my system.
She layed on the couch pulling me on top of her and began to whisper in my ear "Tell me... Do you want me?" a blast of ecstacy charge through me like lightning. Her forehead was on mine and her eyes were back to that ice blue just the way I loved it.
"Yes" I said melting with her on the coach.
"Then kiss me" she said sliding my hand into the front of her tight black leather skirt and so there we were making out only this time on the amazing and wonderful little couch with the elaborate beautifull dots. It was the most eurotic relationship I knew I'd ever have. I loved her and this life style. I was a part of it now which was bad and I knew it was but, didn't care.
"Open your mouth" she said staring at me so passionently I couldn't help but open it with out question. "Now stick out your tongue" I paused knowing she was about to feed me more of the drug. My mind kept saying no but my heart defeated it by screaming, "you can't loose her, you can't loose her" over and over and, I really didn't want to loose her, I couldn't. "I know you want it, just stick out your tongue and be with me forever Jason. Just me and you." she then gently bit my lip over powered by love I did it and she placed the blue pill on my tongue. I was bearly done swallowing it before she started kissing me again.
"Do you love me?" she asked while she softly nibled on my ear.
"Yah" she bit harder clinching my pants "yah, yah, yes I love you!"
"Stay with me and never leave me" she eased down to my neck and began to bite.
"I will, I'll stay with you." and I meant it, oh how I meant it. The intensity of the moment made me fight the tears from coming down my face even though I could tell they were streaming down hers. The drug really makes it so much more intense. This relationship has become the purest ideal of insanity converged in love I could ever physically come across.
I can't say how long we were on the couch but I know we didn't get off until the music stopped. After the show we went to her house and made love for countless hours. After wards I was exhausted and still under effect from the third pill I had taken. I was now to in love to be scared of the drug any more.
"Welcome, to the new world. Tell me... do you like it?" She said smiling as we watched the glow sticks we put on her fan spin round and round.
"I love it, I love you. I never want to leave." This was my new home. My new life and I wouldn't change it for the world.
"As do I, and you entering it has made it sooo perfect" She kissed me and then rolled over and drifted in to sleep and that concluded my first night in the world of rave I had sought for so long. What would the ending be I couldn't help but think but then my mind was blocked by the verse of the first song, "love yourself, love the music, love the music, love yourself" and I fell asleep.
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If you read it all, I'd just like to thank you for struggling through it.
Last edited by Sigur Rós : 07-20-2006 at 06:23 PM.
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