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Seeking Assistance...again.
Kind of awkward for somebody to ask me what I've got going for myself on a gaming board. Somebody I don't even know.
I. am. stressed. every. single. fucking. day. and it's not even for the same reasons!
Different things happen each day, like somebody makes fun of me, this guy named Angel bothers me and I feel like kicking his ass but don't take the risk since I'll get MY ass in trouble instead, I get bombarded with homework that I don't understand, ETC.
(Please don't reply to the homework part of this post. I've really had enough of all that bullshit...)
I leave school every. fucking. day. telling myself that tomorrow is going to be a bad ass day because I'm going to have EVERYTHING in order.
And then when I wake up, it's doomsday all over again.
My fucking hair is too short for me to be able to comb it the way I want to, and even if It WAS long enough, it'd still turn into a bitch by getting all tangled and crap.
Why is my life such a bitch?
What the hell do I have to repent for?
1. I lost my mother around seven years ago.
2. Grandmother died around five or six months ago.
3. I'm not close to my sister.
4. My dad doesn't understand me.
5. My grandfather has a bad knee.
6. My Playstation 2 isn't here, because I was nice enough to lend it to my step brother.
7. People make fun of me at school.
8. I'M GIVEN HOMEWORK I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND!
9. One of my old teachers has a suspicion that I'm stalking her or that I'm going to rape her.
10. Even people on a GAMING board insult me.
11. My writing skills are detereorating, and I'm sure I didn't spell that word right.
12. ...........What other reason do I have to "live" for other than the people who care about me?
I'm not one to let somebody on a gaming board put me down and ruin my day, but I am one to recognize the truth when I see it.
The only thing I do to keep myself entertained is play video games and read books.
Writing is my talent, but I am NOT going to sit by a desk, for the rest of my life, jotting down my ideas onto a sheet of paper.
Somebody. Help. Me. Find. Meaning.
...I don't really expect to hear anything I haven't heard before though.
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