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Again a new day
Again a new day
Sometimes it is very difficult to distinguish between the beginnings of two new days. As I usually washed my face, the first thought that haunted me was- what should be today’s master perception?
For last several days even months I was calling bad wishes to my lady boss who has done clear injustice and despite my representation she remained unmoved.
I had firm belief in my GURU’S spiritual powers and I had strong feeling that whatsoever luck I could perceive in this life was my Guru’s grace. So for the solution of every frustration I had only remedial option. Complaining before my spiritual GURU whom I thought to be remedy of all maladies.
In fact I first met with that lady officer with intent to experiment upon her-- my acquired or perceived spiritual powers to gain favor along with counter good wishes for her. But as time passed by, I started feeling that I had been subjected to strong negative influences originated from that lady.
I again approached her and influenced her great mystic powers rather great mystic divine powers held by my deities—She in a very easy reflex responded”Ye!!! It is all faith only”. In fact I was astounded to her reflex and immediately reacted – “Faith??? Oh!!! No. It is a matter of perception.”
Now the era of experimentation began. Now I had an open challenge to let prove what the meaning of perception that overruled faith was. I t was very complex zone of psychic working. Everybody was exposed to these general terms in his day today conversation ---faith, God, realization!!! But in the name of perception, people threw such matters to the zone of religious thinkers exclusively.
But in my case things were more complex. I had declared perception to superimpose faith and to my wonder, deities’ powers were more practical and scientific.
In fact such a typical event never occurred in my life. It was really challenging.
Accepting this challenge, I started roaming about in the forest of my native village. In fact my spiritual GURU had actually passed away and since his demise I was living in GURU vacuum. Till he lived, I never thought it seriously to acquire practical knowledge through him. I always believed in his act and resultant grace. So I thought him my magical ring materializing my every wish. In fact before my meeting with him, I was atheist and he wonderfully proved that in the domain of supernatural power nothing is impossible. Rather everything was easy in terms of this world relatively.
So it was a long vain chase. I was having some confidence in my own mastership only. In fact my GURU did the complex process of Hindu’s fire worship in very simple way. He usually put some edibles and medicinal herbs into the fire to materialize wishes. I often queried the interrelationship between these substances and fire vis- a- vis wishes. He so many times clarified this secret, but I did never attempt to grasp it seriously. I was thinking that ultimately in case no media is explored, I should have to resort to my own knowledge, howsoever, scant it might be.
In fact my Guru’s knowledge always inspired me that innocent resort to element [fire] for witnessing prayer was the fundamental underlying technique. No specific sound was needed to hammer in such process. The innocence was the greatest purity loved by the divine power.
I still recall those days when my teenager daughter was shouting with intolerable pains in her stomach and I was helplessly standing there since her condition was so serious that her transportation to hospital was also appearing to be a very difficult task. She was screaming and the time was odd night hours. I immediately thought of my great GURU and took great risk to rush onto him. Incidentally he met and he consoled me to go back. As I reached home, I found my daughter quite relaxed. She is a great courageous and intelligent member of my family. It is not we only that decorate her with this epithet. In fact everybody, be her friends, husband, sibling, neighbor every body declare her to be intelligent. Intelligence does mean being perceptive to surrounding environment. This again has been my definition though not yet confronted with any serious criticism like my PERCEPTION had encountered with FAITH. So again for me faith was evidenced in terms of perception. So I had concluded that FAITH was rather a vague terminology used in the context of religious mysteries that my GURU practically manifested through materialization in comprehensible manner.
Any way the internal struggle was going to be more and more sharp aged. I was in dire need of a mysterious saint again. Soon frustration started to creep in my psyche. In fact the typical lady bureaucrat had challenged my more than thirty years exposure to mystic zone.
I was still optimist and continued practicing upon the FIRE element with as much little knowledge as owned by me. My GURU had taught me that applying BLACK Tilli [SESAME] to sacred fire defeats enemies. Since the lady challenger had grabbed my prosperity, peace and stability, so in that way she was my antagonist. I used to continue my prayer and witness results. I knew that everything was experimental. For me what I resorted to was not a matter of faith. It was a school of studies yielding perception.
Days passed by. More than a year slipped. I could not claim with much certainty any counter negatives caused to my enemy. Soon a day came when I encountered a small boy in the dress of a sage along with his black dog. I saw him from a distance of half a kilometer. I was so exhilarated through his appearance that moved me towards him like magnetic attraction. I was on my bike and when I could closely approach him it was periphery of an old well. We both seated there. In pleasure of success I started adoring him to be incarnate of GOD. I expected reply instantly and as he nodded his head in affirmative sense; there was no limit of my pleasure. My search for a new GOD-GURU had fructified.
Although prior to this GOD, I had encountered with a great Tantrik lady, who belonged to BUDDHIST tantrik sect. She had been my caretaker during most critically negative period that I had been witnessing ever since the meeting with that challenging bureaucratic lady. In fact during initial period of my struggle, I was assuming retaliatory instincts that were ever controlled by my Buddhist tantrik lady teacher -TARA MOONLAM [Frouwina Touwen]]. She always advised me to be cool and also promised for my prosperity. She taught me Buddhism that always castigated negativism in return to negative. Positive return to negative is theme practice of Buddhism. In fact absolute positivism of Christ and nonviolence of Hindus especially in applied context of religion was never as comprehensible with clarity as this great tantrik lady taught me. To some extent I followed her. In fact, when we mitigate our fury through such understanding, our positive power to respond to critical negative impacts is enormously preserved and this makes us invincible.
So TARA’S role had been very unforgettable. She is continuously praying for me and the wonderful perception that I could feel and express is pacification of furious thoughts against my enemy. This has enabled me to be stronger in the front of challenges that I still feel to be perception of a new day. I still wait a day when the TARA shall superimpose MEERA. And that will again be a new day………
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