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Forever
Scared, that’s how I feel, unlatching the door
To despair in your unknown future, alone.
But the upward curve of your lips suggests promise.
So, I’m unable to worry about my beautiful boy.
Passion always did run in your veins.
Joyous, you grasp at life with both hands.
And I can’t stand to see you grow—
Though it’s inevitable, the bloom is too much.
A heavy bag tilts my shoulder, forcing me to question—
Why. But I can’t think any more clearly than this.
I’m sorry because that’s where I let you down.
I never knew the value of love and attachment.
Perhaps from my actions, you’ve learned to counter-balance.
Or maybe you’re just like me.
I hope you don’t give up on those you love.
It hurts when they leave, but what of the ones that don’t?
Those are the ones that color the sky of your life, and
Remind you that your horizons are limitless.
I remember when you used to cry—
I felt so helpless. Never anything to do, nothing to fix.
Pushing the pain away, I numbed my senses.
But that’s impossible to do any longer.
You’re asking big questions, and I’ve run out of big answers.
You outgrew me, like a sapling struggling to grow.
I’m only too relieved to blend into the audience.
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I think we are blind. Blind people who can see, but do not see. - jose saramago
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