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Soliloquy Of A Heart
SOLILOQUY OF A HEART
By Peter Merz
Lackluster thoughts take me down roads of nowhere.
I hear the growl of wolves of the soul –
I can feel their relentless eyes, watching, waiting, hoping
For a moment of weakness that they can exploit and expose;
Shredded ribbons of a heart that used to care,
Broken remnants of a love that once longed to endure –
But now the caking blackness of shattered dreams consumes all.
This life now reverts to a former state of mind,
Cancels all impossible dreams and every love out of reach –
Trusting in nothing but the present tense,
No longer playing games of time and chance,
No more toying with kismet and dancing fates.
Life and love are what they are – nothing more, nothing less
Trembling now in a cacophony of converging memories
Of where I have been, and dreams of where I once longed to live.
Strength turns to utter weakness and resolve becomes brittle as glass,
Unsure of where to place my head or to find any prevailing rest.
And yet like a cool and comforting wind,
I feel the breath of her or so it seems – a chain I thought broken
That still links me to a moment in time, a moment that has long passed.
The choices I make will not go unnoticed, and may carry a deeper impact
Than I could ever know in this fleeting moment of present reality.
No more masks, my soul is laid bare – completely naked;
And the growling wolves circle ‘round my heart, hungry for the kill.
Let them wait, let them watch, but in the end I will be stronger for it.
No more prisoner to the thoughts and motives of those around me –
Every chain and every link now lies broken and shattered in the dust;
I’ve made peace with every ghost of my past and look only to the future
that I forge –
From this moment on, I am freer and stronger than ever I have been.
Copyright © 2006 Peter Merz
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