How could I speak in which cannot be spoken?
But with a pen barely whisking against this paper.
So quickly undone as were those memories.
If only fate could be so gentle and giggle in my ear.

With each breath harder and harder to take,
The thoughts in my mind began to speed up,
Among the forbidden library much like a discarded book,
So full of dust it opened flipping pages so eagerly.

The doors open and cover undone right where I left it,
A story untold, behind those steel walls built shortly after it all,
Nothing I did right nor wrong seem to matter,
When I thought I had forgiven and truly let you go.

As my body festered its last of everything,
Came brightly as a sun rising so warm yet haunting,
The forbidden library which I locked you so deeply in my mind,
Opened and you came to me, again another neverending dream turned to nightmare.

Should my eyes close again, that cold voice and cold arms reaching for me again,
You stand there against time, love, hope, dream
When the sun so carelessly buries itself and comes end of time for me,
My last dying breath will gasp for air it will never breathe again.

Though it was over for such a long time already,
With memories locked, words better unspoken, love worn out
I have no amount of paper or words,regrets or remorse.
From the moment you woke me from slumber in a spiraling abyss,
My mind never ceased against your happiness nor tears,
I've thought of you more than breath itself and you will be the last thought in my mind.