After years of deliberation (read: 'angsting about like a ninny') I have come to the conclusion that it is always better to face one's personal issues than to run from them. Like with bullies, running away and hoping they'll get bored of you or be sidetracked by a more interesting victim-
Well, now, hang on; because with human bullies that works quite well...
But Metaphorical Bullies are the ones that need facing. Not in quite the same category as Personal Demons,
Three steps to cross my bedroom, another seven the length of my house. A wall full of Shakespeare, Lovecraft, and Manga. Shelves littered with a gypsies trinkets; souvinere jewelry, an antique glass coke bottle, a sand dollar and a box hand carved out of driftwood-
"I'd pull out my heart and I'd feed it to anyone!"
I think, idly but often, that i'd like to burn everything you ever made me, bought me, gave me.
"She's filled with secrets."
Just me talking to myself... again...
So, I am supposed to be working on my young adult low fantasy novel Children of Dragons (it's even scrawled across my calendar 'monday-CoD, tuesday-dye hair, wednesday-CoD, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday,-CoD, CoD, CoD, CoD!)
Alas! I got chatting with friends both on and off the forum and my pet project horror/humor indulgence romp I'd been calling (as a collective of short stories) Tales From Ellington Park spiraled out of
I never thought it would be so quiet in my own head.
Oh, there's inspiration; characters and plots and themes and worlds all there crowding around my chair, tugging on my socks for attention-
But I've never really written by myself before.
I'll call it... the Hive. I used to wander in and out not unlike the neighborhood cat- my work greeted happily but not someone to be relied upon to stay- and yet always welcome. And they were just as much a part
Don't feel obliged to read these, but I'm trying to write a little something every day even when I'm taking a break from my projects. Like with stuttering, even if you are never able to completely overcome it, practicing speech can help significantly.
I will probably always stutter a little, and writing has always been my preferred method of self expression, but the more you do anything- especially something you enjoy and are decent at- you only get better at it.