When I say euthanized, it means more than just a mercy killing or painless death, when I use it, I use it with dual meanings so let me explain the new definition I coined, YOUTHanized would be more appropriate because it's the youth I'm talking about ,the ones who never had a chance to see their full potential because of the society they live in and the hand they were dealt, so when i say somebody was or is being euthanized, it means more than the standard definition, society euthanized them.
Back in eighty four who could predict what id live for
Born premature into these hardships that id endure
Say no more, Just a baby corrupted as a seed
Lost and crazy, erupted these thoughts of violence and creed
Now will i bleed for this life i lead, or was i doomed
From out the womb i break free headfirst towards my own tomb
Two months to soon, the curse of rushing to a black hearse
Wont be the first or the last, living in reverse
Got em all immersed in every line that i design
Picking at my verses trying to see inside my mind
Trying to find a sign of sanity inside of me
The black sheep of the family, somebody save me
Distorted visions when i sleep in critical condition
Creeping through the graveyard loosing my religion
So scared up and hard for me to open up my eyes
Disregard tomorrow, leaving here euthanized
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Now that I'm grown, I'm wise and choose to go it alone
Revised the plan, stand on my own, one hand on the chrome
Who could of known the outcome of what i would become?
The outcast son, now will i blast or will i run
Put away my guns in the hopes of a better day
No more pistol smoke and no more ducking all these strays
So much promise in the beginning, i reminisce
A lifestyle of sining, i couldn't be religious
Now the finished product when nobody gave a fuck
Struck from the fire then chucked away into the muck
The throwaways branded useless and underhanded
Told to go away, cut loose where ever they landed
Got me thinking, what's the use?, living life as a recluse
Drinking hundred proof as i tighten up the noose
Fighting so hard, 2 scarred up 2 open up my eyes
Disregard tomorrow, leaving here euthanized
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The demons of depression swarmed me and took their form
Left me torn and bleeding with questions since i was born
Why mourn the deceased when it's them who get all the peace
Released from the storm, no longer stuck inside the beast
A type of suicide in motion they can't describe
No reason left to hide, so miss Soto up and died
Nobody knows why she choose to go the way she'd go
Catching bullets as she tried to blast, then her eyes closed
Nobody cared to ask why she had to die so fast
Only stared, wasn't the first and sure wont be the last
Perhaps she was another victim of the venom
spinning a poisonous web right from the beginning
Standing on the edge of a full fledged insanity
Thoughts of the end scarred and dredged into my memories
Walking through my mind like it's a graveyard, say goodbye
Disregard tomorrow, leaving here euthanized
