Modest Me

Okay I'm about sure that this is my third 'how was your week' thread THIS WEEK, but I just realized I'm the meanest person ever.

I was searching through Myspace.. I like typed it in to show me all the people within like 50 miles of me or something like that, just to see who would come up (I was very bored). Some of the people that came on my screen all posed trying to look.. whatever way they wanted people on Myspace to think they look..
And all of a sudden this mean thought popped into my head. "These people actually think they look good!?!" As soon as I thought it, I was just like "What the crap [Modest]! You're so mean!" (yes, I talk to myself, what of it?).

I pride myself on being a nice person. The only thing really big wrong with me is my temper, and my inability to keep my opinions to myself (Both of these things together got me in big trouble yesterday). How could I be the one thinking these things? I think someone needs to knock me down a peg in the looks department, you know. Someone needs to look at ME and say "Do you actually think you look good?" Thats the only way I'll learn how badly things like that hurt.
Well, I'm not going to say no ones ever hurt my feelings by saying that I'm ugly and fat (thanks "dad"). But you'd think I would have learned something through that experience. Apparently not, though.

What is my problem? Am I the biggest snob in America??
What I'm asking for in a reply here is to tell me some of the mean thoughts that you guys have caught yourselves thinking, so I don't feel alone in my evil-ness.

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Also, on something that has absolutely nothing to do with the rest of this.. This fall, I will be moving away to college. (I'm in college now, but this fall I'll be going to a college far away and living on campus). I can't decide between two colleges for the life of me.

I wanted to go to College A, but my brother is going to College B, so my mom talked me into going there (she wants me near my brother, for protection I guess). So I got my heart all set on College B. Well, my brother just told me that he is going to apply to College A this fall. I looked into it, and I'm thinking that College A would be better for me in the longrun. BUT I've already applied to College B and my hearts all set on it, you know. And I don't know if I should take it into consideration, but I've got friends that go to College A, too. I've also got NO money to pay for a whole new application fee to College A. Also, theres no guarantee that my brother will even get into College A because he's not had the best grades, or ACT score. (Not to sound smug, but I know I will get in, because despite my bad grades, my high ACT score seems to have gotten me accepted to every college I've applied to so far, including one that has a reputation for being extremely hard to get into.)

It sounds like College A wins by a landslide, but like I said, my hearts all set on College B. And you know what its like when my heart gets set on something. :/ I think that if something happened and I didn't get to go to College B, I'd probably start crying.
Why am I even considering College A then? My friends who go there, and the fact that they have a much better curriculum for my major.

**So- reply to either or both parts of the thread and let me know what you think. Thanks**

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rumpole40k

O.K., this wasn't my mean thought, but .... My principal walks into the staff meeting. She's been stressed for weeks. So after taking a few breaths she looks at us and says "I'm going to relax and let this stress go. I was driving to work and I saw this guy in a wheelchair. Hey, at least I'm not him!"

She looked at us and smiled.

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chimchimski

You know Modest...you have brought up an interesting thought about how we act around people and what we secretly think...you are not alone...I believe many of us do this...it's part of being human.
~Once I was working a late shift (I had pulled two that day) and it was Christmas time...anyway, there was this woman complaining because she couldn't get an engraving done fast enough...she stood in front of the counter and just nagged and nagged about the time...anyway, she turns to me and starts yelling at me...I looked at her and said..."Look lady, do you really think it matters who gets the shoe? You'll be lucky if they even remember you next year." There was probably 25 customers there picking up their orders. I did get an applause from the first four standing in line... Thank God my manager was there and heard this woman's constant complaining...but, I felt bad afterwords because I lowered myself to her level.
(She would have probably walked away had she read my thoughts...)

As far as your college choice, you really should consider the education you are going to receive and how happy you are going to be while attending there. I think you already know what you want...right now it's just a matter of sticking by your decision!
You'll make the right one...I am sure of it!

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Malone

Actions are all that matter. You can't help what you think. Your brain is made a certain way, and you have no control over that. You can control your actions, and from what I know about you, you do. That's what makes you a good person.

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Intel

This morning I was in McDonalds having breakfast. While I was busy removing that nasty cheese from my sausage bagel, a black muslim starting making noise at the counter.

He goes "Some people are too grabalicious" referring to a woman in the counter next to him. Now I've heard of bootylicious. But never grabalicious. So I took this to mean that he found her attractive, that he wishes to grab her parts, thus making her grabalicious. But apparently this was an insult.

He was getting real rowdy, meanwhile the other customers and staff just looked on in horror and amusement while he verbally attacked that woman. "You're too grabalicious, I told you that before! I know beauty is in the eye of the beholder and that, but your ugly man. Grow your hair, you look like a man."

"I'm not scared of you", replied the timid woman.

"Do you know who I am? Eh, stop talking to me man. I know you just wanna speak to me. Your too grabalicious."

I suppose you had to be there to truly appreciate the humour of this situation, although the guy was a dick. The point is Modest, that at least you don't go around making other peoples lives miserable like this guy. Its like Malone said, its your actions that count.

P.S. since you asked, your last pick made you look nerdy and those glasses aged you a few years.

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smilinghelps

Mean? Let me think about that...
Yep. Catty. Definitely. Cruel, judgemental, belittling and superficial.

Go to the college your Mother guilts you into going to. You'll feel better, it'll make up for your catty nature.




Oh wait. I'm female.
Maybe, once or twice in the past 10 seconds, I've thought that way.


Damn.
You're normal.

shhhh....

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Intel

Maybe she is normal smiling, but best she keep her thoughts to herself. Nah mean?

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smilinghelps

I suppose.

I would be a liar if I said I don't think the same thing. I occasionally share my thoughts with a few select friends, but not too often. I really believe the reason I do it (can't speak for every catty-minded being) is because I have low self-esteem so I pick away at others (in my mind) to feel not-so-bad about myself. It's kind of like "Well she could stand to lose 15--and I only need to lose 10, I'm not that bad". Sad but true.

Not everyone thinks this way but I think it's more common than most would imagine. But Malone is right, your actions are what count. To think those things are one thing (can you really control your thoughts?) but to say them out loud is something all together different.

I've learned to hold my tongue and judge people by who they are and not what they wear, how they look or how many piercings they have. It takes effort and maturity, MM is just growing up and learning. We can't down her for that.

To her face, anyway

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JosephB

College A is kind of a party school, but they have a good football team. College B, on the other hand, might look better on your resume. I went to College C, so I can't say for sure.

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Intel

Whatever smiling. You're too grabalicious, I told you that before.

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smilinghelps

Is that an insult, Intel?

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Intel

No, it means I wanna hug and kiss you.

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JosephB

You know, sometimes, my wife and I will be at a mall or something and just make ourselves crack up -- looking at what people are doing or wearing. Sometimes we make up little scenarios, dialog, backgrounds -- just based on how people look. It's not right. But it sure as hell can be funny. I wouldn't want my kids to hear us, so that tells you something, I suppose.

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alanmt

These thoughts are only human, modest. Don't beat yourself up over them. Try to be generous, polite and charitable in your actions.

If your heart is set on College B, go there! Don't let your brother's kaleidescope intentions color your judgment.

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Modest Me

Thoughts lead to actions, actions lead to... idk the rest of the saying, but the point is- you never do something or say something without it going through your brain first.. im just a step away from one of those people you see bullying the poor kids because their pants are hand-me-downs, or bullying some girl because todays standards say shes ugly..

Yeah, I know I'm going to end up going to College B- I just gotta tourment myself over the decision a little first... thats how i do it

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