2008 - a clean slate - Page 2 - Writers Forum

Suzip · 04-05-2008, 12:24 PM

Hi Zensati, I can see you are going through a rough time but not all women are the same, neither are all men. I can understand you aren't looking for anyone right there.....been there, bought the t-shirt, but life can surprise you.

I was married to someone a long while ago, he treated me very badly and eventually I kicked him out. Our son was 11 months at the time, hes nearly 17 now. His dad dropped in his life every few years but never stayed in his life for more than a couple of weeks. I suffered a lot and never thought I'd find anyone else, most of the time I didn't want too. But, then two years ago I met Neil. We're engaged now and I feel more loved than I ever have in my life. He kind, caring, funny and I'm very happy. Things can change.

Zensati · 04-06-2008, 12:00 AM

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Originally Posted by CodeRed

Glad you are enjoying being single.

As a side note, I once dumped a complete jerk for a 'nice guy'. Just thought I'd put that out there, since it seems to be a common belief that girls prefer a bastard over the stereotypical 'nice guy'.

Yeah.. I was probably generalising a bit. I think I might have been in a mood when I wrote that. I guess I have issues with the women in my past... But I was partly responsible for what happened with all my exes.

Zensati · 04-06-2008, 12:10 AM

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Originally Posted by Suzip

Hi Zensati, I can see you are going through a rough time but not all women are the same, neither are all men. I can understand you aren't looking for anyone right there.....been there, bought the t-shirt, but life can surprise you.

I was married to someone a long while ago, he treated me very badly and eventually I kicked him out. Our son was 11 months at the time, hes nearly 17 now. His dad dropped in his life every few years but never stayed in his life for more than a couple of weeks. I suffered a lot and never thought I'd find anyone else, most of the time I didn't want too. But, then two years ago I met Neil. We're engaged now and I feel more loved than I ever have in my life. He kind, caring, funny and I'm very happy. Things can change.

Glad to hear it worked out well for you. I guess I kind of look at relationships as kind of a duty that requires alot of effort. And I find single life more simplistic and easier for me.

But I think its human nature to want a serious relationship and I have to manage that compulsion. In order that I may continue to have the simple, uncomplicated life that I enjoy.

And when I look at my relationship track record, I am not sure it would be worth getting back on the horse.

Suzip · 04-06-2008, 04:41 AM

I can understand where you are coming from. It was about 13 years before I even considered dating (yes it was that bad lol)

Zensati · 04-27-2008, 10:38 PM

Well.. I've been taking care of my son regularly. And I really love his company. Sure there are times he can be demanding and emotional. But I've never felt more alive when I spend quality time with him and I am so grateful for this opportunity I have been given.

I really hope I can develop a strong bond with him. But It may be difficult when the amount of time I get with him is so restricted. Still my ex is doing a great job of raising him. And I make the most of any contact I have with Ryan and we have heaps of laughs together.

I dont know what will eventuate in the future. But for the time being I will make the most of every second that I am given of being Ryans Dad. At the moment life for me has no real stability because Of the way that I exist and I have to factor that in when It comes to family matters.

Perhaps I should try and create more stability but that hasnt been my approach in the past. And thats probably the main reason why my ex felt she had to leave me. She couldnt adapt to how I live. It wasnt her style. I dont blame her. My life is pretty crazy!

Zensati · 05-18-2008, 11:47 PM

I want to see my boy more.. Fuck that Wendy!.. Oh well, sei la vei.. Still fucking around, still causing mischeif.. Is this what my existance Is all about? I dont know anymore. I realise now I dont know shit..Maybe I should stand up to all the arseholes but I cant be fucked, Fuck the fascists let them rot in their own stink.. Just gotta live my life and do my thing.. I wont be on the planet for long, we all get swept away in the end.. We are all victims of time. The only thing I care about in this world is my son.. I want him to be happy, I want to share good times with him but that stanky bitch wont let me! I curse her.

Zensati · 05-20-2008, 12:19 AM

Ooee Big match tonight! Indoor soccer final. I'm playing but I havent kicked a ball in anger in a month. Hopefully I can pull something out of the hat and play well. Anyway, I'm just going to get in there and have fun.

I really want to start a Garden soccer club. I need the regular competition. Anyway hopefully I play well. The boys are depending on me.

Zensati · 05-21-2008, 12:32 AM

Fuck.. We lost bigtime.. I blame my teammates.. lazy little fuckers. Anyway hopefully I gets more games next week.

I get to see my boy this weekend, cant wait. I had 2 go without seeing him for the last 2 weeks.. that sucks.

I notice there are alot of christian types on this Site.. Why do they beleive in an imaginary god? Dont they know they are deluding themselves. Beleiving all that so called "religious" nonsense is just going to full their lives with lies, superstition and false hopes.

They would be much better off to accept reality as it is. Rather than basing their existances in the unreal.

I guess some people need lies and false hopes to get them through..

Zensati · 06-26-2008, 10:19 PM

So sick of stupid materialistic civilisation! I just want to run away from it all.. get away from all the plebs and travel down the coast... maybe visit all the beaches. I could live off seaweed and seafood and shit. Not having to rely on stupid money.. not having to join the rat race with the stupid plebs.

That would be hot! what do you think?

SevenWritez · 06-26-2008, 10:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Zensati

So sick of stupid materialistic civilisation! I just want to run away from it all.. get away from all the plebs and travel down the coast... maybe visit all the beaches. I could live off seaweed and seafood and shit. Not having to rely on stupid money.. not having to join the rat race with the stupid plebs.

That would be hot! what do you think?

Into the Wild. Ever read it?

He was eaten by a bear.

Zensati · 06-27-2008, 12:31 AM

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Originally Posted by SevenWritez

Into the Wild. Ever read it?

He was eaten by a bear.

Well we dont have bears in Australia, my main concern would be snakes and Spiders.

SevenWritez · 06-27-2008, 08:07 AM

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Originally Posted by Zensati

Well we dont have bears in Australia, my main concern would be snakes and Spiders.

Watch out for them solid snakes. They're sneaky.

Zensati · 06-28-2008, 11:09 PM

Actually I have a pet Solid Snake, His name is Percy. Sometimes he gets a little sick and vomits out smelly substances.

ash somers · 06-28-2008, 11:30 PM

i have a pure white cockatiel, called percy who sits on my shoulder
and also two, blue tongue lizards, called sir borris and dame dorris
every year they have babies, it's really a quite gruesome affair
i wouldn't mind a pet snake, um, what are they like to keep > ?

and don't worry too much about having to tell your son stuff
he'll werk it out in his own time, kids can't be fooled *wink*
they know what's going on, no matter what they're told
and ...
i thought you were joking about living in australia, lol

Zensati · 06-29-2008, 10:15 PM

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Originally Posted by ash somers

i have a pure white cockatiel, called percy who sits on my shoulder
and also two, blue tongue lizards, called sir borris and dame dorris
every year they have babies, it's really a quite gruesome affair
i wouldn't mind a pet snake, um, what are they like to keep > ?

and don't worry too much about having to tell your son stuff
he'll werk it out in his own time, kids can't be fooled *wink*
they know what's going on, no matter what they're told
and ...
i thought you were joking about living in australia, lol

I keep my snake Percy imprisoned in my pants, Sometimes he is naughty and I have to beat him.

Yeah I guess I shouldnt worry so much about my sons situation, but sometimes I think he feels a bit confused by the fact his parents live so far apart, I guess I just want the best for him, just like any other parent.

I've been living In Melbourne for a long time, but now I want to get away.