i may still be a bit tipsy. - Writers Forum

tristiano · 07-13-2008, 02:26 AM

fuck.

i would like to start this thread with simply "fuck."

and with good reason. good FUCKING reason. mhm, thats better. i guess it could be worse. who the FUCK do you think you are? you think you're so fucking special because you squeezed out a few puppies? chances are you didn't, but I'm particularly addressing the parents here. NO you do NOT have totalitarian control over your children in an ideal law abiding society. where did this come in? we enslaved the blacks because we had guns and they had none, so we COULD. we controlled women because testosterone makes you strong enough to beat one into submission, because we COULD. so it is of little surprise that you have no rights until your muscles are developed and you are beyond control. it all comes down to this: we humans control anyone we fucking can. why do you think governments have popped up more and more rapidly?

all i want: control over myself.
thats all i want. while many others want control over their kids, would like to be president and control a country, be a mayor and at least control a little, be rich and control the people who work for you...
all i want is the right to have control over myself. and do i get it? NO, because they're are so many people trying to get that control over me i dont get the fucking chance.

now, to my fucking day.
and no, you filthy cunt, im too angry and slightly tipsy to capitalize SHIT. not that i would anyways, not for your fucking sorry drone ass.

anyways, if you're still reading my anger sprayed page.

i got up at noon, awoken by a text message from my lover. i left to see said lover, and we hung out till... im not sure.. five? then i went with my lover to her house, with the intention of sleeping over.

side tracked: why can we not sleep in the same bed or room? honestly, you leave us for hours and hours during the day, we could (and often do) fuck, but at night, when all you suburban housewives fuck, we shockingly are sleeping. come on, day time, when you are awake and can see, or the opposite? get real.

now, i was over there, and my lover's mother left to sun tan for.. half an hour?
im not going to say how much we drank, because malone (thank you for your manuscript darling) will make fun of me for being such a lightweight. anyway, i got shit faced. i had never been this drunk. it is not fun. of course, i will prepare for the "stupid teenager, i told you so" etc. great. so we walked off into a field, almost falling over constantly. after walking around a bit, we walked back accepting the fact that we were caught. we had put a frowny face on an empty bottle of i don't even remember what. she at first thought it was funny, my lover's mother. then she realized how drunk we were and that her alcohol was gone. i think she was only mad because it cost her money. i offered to pay. meh. she drove me home and was "disappointed". i understand this, however i didn't really care at the time. i threw up in her car, to make matters worse. i must of looked like hell. we got home and my parents... i don't remember. i told jasmine's mom that my parents hit me, that my father tried to kill me while my mother watched and laughed. it was complete word vomit. i even told my parents about the time when i ODed on i don't even remember what, in an attempt to off myself. i got throw up on my pants, and while i was showering (ah, never shower when drunk, i nearly hit my head on the floor) they took all my shit. i found my comb from my right pocket on a table. this means they also emptied my left pocket, probably to put my pants in the wash. this means they found... let me do the math... dad's couch... mom's couch... bathroom... graveyard... uuuh... twelve minus... yeah. eight condoms. i don't really care what they think anymore.

they have tried to ground me before, but i can just walk out the fucking door and call 911 if they try to hit me for it, which they would, if i didn't have a phone with 91 on it. now they have jasmine's mothers cooperation, so they will sever all contact between us for a week if they get their way. i don't know if jasmine will be able to sneak on her computer and talk to me, but if not it will be hell. we survived two weeks without seeing each other but we still talked every day.

it is now two in the morning.

my stomach feels odd.

my head hurts.

is this a hang over?

it is not so bad.

well my faithful reader, you have made it this far.

i am not sure why i am posting this, i guess i need people to talk to. i hate most of you. wow, i am really encouraging people here. MOST of you. then again i really want to talk to people about this for some reason. i would even allow josephb to post here if i could choose. at least i could laugh a bit.

im going to go get a drink and maybe throw up.

JHB · 07-13-2008, 02:28 AM

I started to read this, but after a few seconds I realized that it was just not possible.

CodeRed · 07-13-2008, 11:44 AM

Oh...my...God.

I actually did read all of that (Hmm, DrG was right - I am a masochist. Damn.

)

Here's the only thing I want to say - you obviously can't control yourself, so someone's got to. Nay - needs to.

JosephB · 07-13-2008, 12:26 PM

This little self-absorbed brat is at it again. So much of a person's core thinking and behavior patterns are formed by this age. For most, you can expect the restraint that comes with maturity. But basically, I think this guy's fucked.

Aside from the freak show/car wreck aspect of these threads, why the hell does he think anyone cares?

And I say we take up a collection and buy the little twat a keyboard with a shift key on it.

terrib · 07-13-2008, 12:41 PM

Aren't you a little young for all this tris....you need to get help, kid...seriously.

AA · 07-13-2008, 01:14 PM

And what should be the magic age when they stop having control over your life? 10? 12? 14? Whenever you say? How about when you have the money to leave and live on your own. Until then, suck it up. You'll need to save some of that anxt. There are much much worse things to come.

2.0 · 07-13-2008, 01:46 PM

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Originally Posted by AA

And what should be the magic age where they stop having control over your life? 10? 12? 14? Whenever you say? How about when you have the money to leave and live on your own.

Amen to that.

You whine an awful lot.

sammyjo · 07-13-2008, 01:59 PM

i dont understand this, its quite disturbing, not sure if its a written piece, or a true story :S

Tiamat10 · 07-13-2008, 02:05 PM

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Originally Posted by AA

And what should be the magic age where they stop having control over your life? 10? 12? 14? Whenever you say? How about when you have the money to leave and live on your own. Until then, suck it up. You'll need to save some of that anxt. There are much much worse things to come.

And bingo was his name-o.

Trist, I was 19 when I moved out of my parents' house and up until that point, no matter how much I resented the 'control' you mention, the fact of the matter is, while they're paying for you to stay alive, you should probably just suck it up. There ARE much much worse things to come, as AA says.

lilacstarflower · 07-13-2008, 02:21 PM

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all i want: control over myself.

Believe it or not - this is one of the easiest things to achieve. If you re-directed your energy from the whole 'I feel so sorry for myself and the world is against me' crap, you'd find this out.

Why do I even bother clicking on these threads, they just annoy me

Nora · 07-13-2008, 03:35 PM

I really think that you need to STOP drinking and everything else you do and take a good look at your life. Is this really the way you want to live? Always mad and always drunk? It doesn't sound like a fun life. Do you think that your friends enjoy you when you are drunk? Is this really the way yu want them to know you? as a kid who could be amazing in anything he wanted to do but wastes his life drinking and having sex?Take a step back and try and turn your life around. Find a person you trust and that you think could help you and confide in THEM instead of posting this for all to read. From what I've read this would also be a good thing for your "lover" to do. You're only 14 don't ruin your future now. It isn't worth it. I know you won't be happy to read this but sometimes what I think you need is a good slap in the face to make you wake up! Just take a minute and think next time you plan on drinking. I hope you try. Good luck.

JosephB · 07-13-2008, 03:44 PM

You all are too kind. I doubt seriously he'll consider your advice. Similar advice was offered on his previous thread and yet, here we are again.

He's likely getting some gratification from watching everyone waste their time. Why indulge him?

Malone · 07-13-2008, 03:52 PM

I guess now you know your cut off point with alcohol. Puking in the girlfriend's mom's car is pretty funny.

tristiano · 07-13-2008, 03:56 PM

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Is this really the way you want to live? Always mad and always drunk? It doesn't sound like a fun life. Do you think that your friends enjoy you when you are drunk? Is this really the way yu want them to know you? as a kid who could be amazing in anything he wanted to do but wastes his life drinking and having sex?

yes, yes, yes it is, no, yes, exactly.

jb, i like the new avatar.

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And I say we take up a collection and buy the little twat a keyboard with a shift key on it.

hehee.

i am wasting my life, ignoring my potential, and i fucking love it. im reading everyday madness right now (almost done) and it is... me. very me.

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Believe it or not - this is one of the easiest things to achieve.

i MUST intervene here... are you free? nope, last time i checked Scotland had laws. if control is so easy to achieve, why are you ruled by...

i need a shower
thanks for the laughs

tekp · 07-13-2008, 03:58 PM

Get over yourself, wait until you're 18 and then do what you want.