by, April 20th, 2017 at 07:28 PM (47 Views)
So yeah... last blog post was a bit of a bummer. Things have gotten a bit better since then. Not great, but not terrible...more like tolerable.
Anyways, lets cut to the chase. I'm thinking of leaving Texas Tech and quitting my Computer science degree. Yeah, I know, probs a dumbass move BUT I'm not 100% quitting school. I'm actually thinking of trying to get a pharmacy tech certification or study basic level computer forensics stuff at a much smaller and cheaper community college. Hopefully after that I can find a better job and decide from there if I wanna get a better degree.
Mainly cos I'm failing all my classes this year. I feel like I have and will be wasting money by continuing here. Texas Tech is a 4 year university with the typical 4 year university tuition. Not exactly easy on the wallet. I keep shoving the blame for my failure on depression and stuff but I have a sneaking suspicion that academic stuff just isn't my thing anymore. Maybe I'll do better with a more career-oriented course.
Right, so now that's outta the way, here's an even dumber idea. I'm thinking of getting an apartment with my boyfriend.
Trouble is, he isn't from america. He's already going to a nice university in the UK and studying what he wants to study. BUT he thinks it'd be worth it to move to the US and study here with the added benefit of me being there. Thing is, he'd be giving up seeing his family and on continuing his current degree plan. He WANTS to do it, and so do i, but I feel like he'd be better off staying in the UK.
He really is a great guy. Probably the best I've known. But I don't want him ruining his life for me. He deserves so much better. As much as I'd like to be able to see him more often, he shouldn't be putting his education on hold for me. And I shouldn't for him. I've made sure he knows that. I'm doing all I can to find a solution that works for us both but it's not easy. Mainly cos our areas of study are so different.
So that was the negatives of that, but, wait, there are a few positives.
One being that we would be able to actually be there for each other. During the time he visited I noticed that both of us were considerably happier and less stressed. And a lot more motivated too. So, I think it would be good for us to be geographically closer.
The second being that his goal is to become a US citizen. This would help him start the naturalization process earlier than he originally planned. Plus, in Texas, he'd be able to qualify for in-state tuition after a year. That'd make any Texas-based colleges and universities cheaper for him.
Third is that community college would be a lot cheaper. For both of us. He is currently paying for his tuition himself. As for me my parents say they're gonna pay for my university but I know they can't possibly afford it. Not at 4 year university prices. This would save them a lot of money, even if it all went bad and I failed that too.
Anyways, I figured here wouldn't be such a bad place to ask for advice. You guys have a lot more life experience than me and are probs a fair bit wiser. What do you think? Got any advice? Is this a dumb idea? I wanna know.